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Things to do, watch and read whilst you are on lockdown!

So we all know that the world is currently on lockdown, well the UK is and although it really sucks and I would love to be back in portsmouth with my friends going out, working, and living the life I love to live. But right now that is not possible and it is very easy to get bored quickly, but I am here to try and help you out with things you can do, watch and maybe read in order to keep yourself busy through all this!

There are several ways to stay busy, set a goal list is a big thing that will help you get through this sturggling and uncertain time. It will help you acheive things you want to get done.

My plans for this time we are on lockdown include trying to get my university work done, i have a lot ot do including write my dissertation which is the biggest piece of work I have had to do alongside my other pieces of university work. It's a stressful time, but it does give me something to focus on even with no motivation. ~~Spoiler because I started writing this a long time ago, i got my work done.~~

Another thing I did was purchase a ninetendo switch, it was something I needed in order to keep myself busy and motivated and occupied during this time. I am obsessed with Animal Crossing and who wouldn't be? Mario Kart is also a fun game I have always loved that keeps me busy. You should always find things that you enjoy to keep you busy when you're stuck inside.

Being busy was always something I felt I needed to do in order to stop feeling lost or not myself. In these situations its easy to get lost in the mess of the world. So instead of getting lsot, try to stay calm and busy. I have made a goal to read a book during this time, I used to love getting lost in a book, a good story but somewhere over the few years, I have spent way to much time getting lost in over things and now I want to get back into reading.

I brought two new books for this period because stupid me left my favourite books in Portsmouth and all the books I had at home I decided I didn't want when my parents redid my room before Christmas. I have yet to read them but I have started reading Queenie and honestly it is good so far. If you have wanted to get back into reading like I have then now is the perfect time.

Another thing I have been trying to do whilst being in lockdown to stay busy and keep my mind occupied when I am not filming videos and editing is be more creative. Which is why scrapbooking my uni experience has become a great thing, I started this back in January time but didn't have much time to continue until now. Amazon do some nice simple scrapbooks and Free Prints give you monthly free prints where all you have to pay is postage and it is definitely worth it.

This is a scary and weird time and if I am honest with you, I am not sure how much I am enjoying this "alone" time. But it is what we have to do to stay safe and for things to get better. I am very much excited for things to eventually go back to some sort of normality. When seeing friends is allowed and I can go back to work.

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Hello and welcome back to my blog, I am so happy to be writing this blog post, mainly because I feel like I need to just need to get this off my chest, I even filmed a video on it. This is something I actually think that most girls, or most people should actually spend more time focusing on it.

This is about why I am choosing myself over others now, and what I am doing to really be happy by myself.

As Carrie Bradshaw once said, "I am just going to be myself. Single and Fabulous!" Which is the exact thing I am going to be.

In the words of Ru Paul, "If you can't love yourself, how in the hell are you going to love someone else."

It takes a lot to say NO I am going to just focus on myself now and no one else and trust me I for one definitely get it, I have always been a person who puts other peoples feelings before mine! But sometimes you have to realise if you don't focus on yourself, you are not going to be happy!

Being free and just the chance to be yourself and feel like you are going to love yourself and give yourself self care and make sure you are the happiest you can be on your own.

I have a few reasons why I am choosing myself, first of all is HAPPINESS! This is because you can't and shouldn't rely on others to make you happy, yes you can be happy in the company of others but that doesn't mean you can't be happy with your own company and it should be you making yourself happy which is something I have had to learn over the past two years of university.

Another thing is I am starting to realise I don't NEED others to make me happy, I just need myself, I need to focus on me and making myself happy! Which if you give yourself a healthy mindset you can be happy.

This point leads on, the lss you need others the more INDEPENDANT you will become, becuase you won't be relying on anyone else but yourself to be happy which means you can realy focus on yourself. Because the more you rely on others to make you happy, means you'll do anything to make them happy even if you're not happy. So once you start focusing on yourself you become more independant.

Another thing is and this goes back to making others happy, STOP doing things you don't want to do for others just because it'll make them happy.

Another thing is and this is what I did all the time, I let people walk all over me and say things and would just be like im so sorry and whatever even if I wasn't in the wrong STICK UP FOR YOURSELF, even though it is hard to do so and trust I get it, sticking up for yourself is the most important thing and if you lose friends because of it then really they aren't a true friend.

Another reason I am chosing me over anything is to stop OVERTHINKING, it is something I always struggle with, I will overthink any little thing I can and honestly it actually sucks because it makes me not want to do anything and I just sit there and be miserable and scared and down for the whole day.

I hope you enjoy my blog because I am very excited to be blogging for everyone! if you do, i would love if you followed my socials which can be found below.

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Well welcome back to my blog, it's been a while hasn't it? so since my last post, what has happened? Well lets see, it has to be the fact that university became too much that to focus on my youtube and my blog as well as uni work was not something I could do. But now I have finished university for the second year, which means I have some time off, which means I can focus on my youtube and my blog.

So now that I am writing this blog post, of course I ahve finished second year and like last year I am going to summarise this year for me in a blog post. I am going to be talking about different things though to last year, because genuinely that was first year and there was a lot of adjustments compared to this year when I am used to being away from home. Be prepared this could be quite long so grab yourself a drink or a snack or both and get too reading.

This year has been a weird one and a test on myself if I am honest, I have had too many break downs this year and my mental health has been a bit up and down this whole year.

As I was saying earlier, second year really played a part of a hard year, I will be honest, social aspects and money stress didn't help, but second year really wasn't as much of a walk in the park as first year was and you really shouldn't expect it too. I will try and split it into topics like I did the last one but I honestly might struggle to do so.

(University of Portsmouth, Union Awards - Show Choir Performance)

1. The Course

I guess this is the most important thing for uni, because you're going to university to get a degree in the course, so I should probably explain that part first. This was what caused a lot of my problems this year, when they said second year is like 10 times harder then first year, they aren't joking and it is important to be prepared for it. When September came I was very excited to start second year, felt like it was going to be a change but a good change, felt more confident and eager to learn. The year started and already by the first day I was piled with a lot of work to do, including seminar prep. Every unit said that we should dedicate 5 hours outside of uni hours for each unit which meant for me, considering we had 6 units to complete within the year, ,so that meant 30 extra hours a week to focus on the units and then more hours when coursework came in. It became all too much and made this year very stressful.

I can't exactly pin point the reason why this year was such a hard year, but there was just so much to take in. Don't get me wrong what I learnt, most of the units were helpful to my future and what I would like to know in the future apart from one unit, that in my mind can go to hell, and I hope I never get to see anything to do with accounting again. Although I know that my course is really going to help me when I actually get that degree next year, some of the things I learnt this year really was not useful or helpful.

One piece of advice I will definitely be able to give you for second year is don't think you will be done with things from first year, you might actually repeat it again in a different scenario.

2. Friendships and Relationships

Something that did change a lot this year was my friendships and it was a shame because some of the friends that I kind of don't talk to anymore were some people I was really close with last year. But things do change especially in second year from first year, because for example I was close with my flatmates last year alongside their girlfriends and now we barely speak, and actually I only still occaisionally speak to their girlfriends on social media but that's all the contact I have with them now because we just grew apart because we're not living together anymore.

Not everything stays the same from First Year, you make so so many friends in first year because of the living situation and how new everything is, that you meet people and they instantly become friends to the point when you move to second years some of those friends you used to hang out with.

One thing I had was my best friend went to France for the year to study there, which meant she wasn't here for the whole year which made it a little harder this year because she was the one person I would run too when ever things felt to much or I was miserable etc.

3. Stress

So in this year I can hands down say that it was the most stressful year yet and I am aware my final year is going to stress me out, but so far this year was very stressful. This went from the Uni work, to managing my social life and then budgeting my money, none of that worked for me this year and it led to me stressing out a lot of the time, I always found a way to be stressed and if I was honest I never expected to be having it easy as so many people said second year was stressful but unfortunately this year was more stressful then I thought.

4. Society

As I have spoken about several times and especially in my last blog post, I am part of the Show Choir Society and this year it has been the best part of my year. I really grew this year thanks to this group of people, from gaining the confidence to audition for a solo song in the christmas showcase that I actually got and had to sing infront of people which a year ago I would have ran away from. Then I also auditioned to be part of the competition squad which originally I didn't get into and then someone dropped out and I was asked to be a part of it. It has been such a good year and helped me gain confidence in myself, to the point that I actually signed up to be part of the committee in the next year and got the role of secutary.

So that is the end of my post about my second year experience and that is the end of second year! Although this year has been a hard year I don't regret any of it.

I hope you enjoy my blog because I am very excited to be blogging for everyone! if you do, i would love if you followed my socials which can be found below.

Instagram: @_ameliajl
Twitter: @ameliajfilms
YouTube: amelialaingfilms

As most of you know from me talking about it in my first year of university experience blog post, that I am a part of the university of portsmouth show choir society. It is one of my favourite things to do and I literally look forward to it everyweek and I just feel like I fit in there and people actually appreciate me there and we all like the same things. I have been a part of the show choir society for the past year and a half, it's definitely helped my confidence a lot.

Lets take it back to the reason why I wanted to join show choir, if you have heard of the TV Series Glee, I was obsessed with that show and I always wanted to be like Rachel Berry. So when I heard there was a show choir society at the Freshers Fayer, I went to ask them questions before I had decided I would consider joining. I will be honest when I had originally joined show choir I barely showed up because I felt very nervous and felt like I didn't want to speak to anyone.

After I decided to give up being nervous, and I decided that I would go all the time, I started speaking to others in the society and it became more of a thing I enjoyed and looked forward to every week. It was a place where I just felt like I could be 100% myself and no one would judge me and they would accept me for me.

Something that show choir really has done has helped my confidence so much, I was always a shy person and i hated singing in front of people and would never just be myself, as I joined show choir, I saw that changing. For example, I would never audition for solos in shows, and we did a winter show case this year just gone and they held auditions for solists to do a whole song during the concert and I decided to go for an audition, didn't expect much from it, but I went for it, in order to try and boost confidence but thought I even messed up my audition with nerves. A week later we had a bowling social and I got told that I got given a solo and I was honestly so shocked, never expected it in the slightest.

(practicing my solo before the show with my girls, Fabrizia and Tania.)

I also auditioned to be part of the Masters competition they are holding on the 24th March this year which is a week away. I originally didn't get into the competition squad and then I did and when I did I wasn't going to say no, this was the biggest thing for me and honestly something that means so much to me that I am getting excited but very nervous for this competition but it is definitely something that means the world to me and is important to me. I even got my own hoodie for the competition and they are really cool.

When you see this, there is 5 days till the show and we got a photo as a group of the masters squad on saturday.

I hope you enjoy my blog because I am very excited to be blogging for everyone! if you do, i would love if you followed my socials which can be found below.

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So for my first official post I thought I would talk about something I have been obsessed with for as long as possible, well the last few years, THE HEATHERS, mainly the musical because I LOVE MUSICALS and also the new heathers reboot (which i am aware most people didn’t like but if you read this you will understand why I like it so much.)

Heathers The Musical

“Can we be seventeen? That’s all I want to do, if you could let me in.”

Let’s start with the musical because I am seriously obsessed with this and can’t help but be obsessed with it and haven’t seen it live, I have seen a drama school version of it on youtube which is actually really good but the soundtrack is by far my favourite thing which made me love the musical even more.

If you didn’t know, Heathers the musical is based off of the 80’s film of Heathers with the characters of Heather Chandler, Heather McNamara, Heather Duke, JD and Veronica Sawyer. As my housemate likes to describe it, it’s mean girls but suicide and death. It’s a very interesting story with bascially the heathers being the mean girls and Veronica joins them and then meets JD and soon falls for him. And then leads to death and drama.

The musical is filled with some amazing songs including seventeen, beautiful, candy store, meant to be yours, freeze your brain, dead girl walking and the new one from the London Cast Recording I Say No! You have no idea how excited I am for the London Cast Recording comes out. I mean by the time you end up reading this, it might already be out.

carrie hope fletcher, barrett wilbert weed as veronica sawyer, ryan mccarten, jamie muscato as JD

Now lets talk about the main actors, the ones who play JD and Veronica as they are the only ones I actually feel like I could talk about even though they aren’t the heathers, but they are the main two of the show. Both the American and British casting was perfect and I honest love both Barrett Wilbert Weeds and Carrie Hopes Fletchers, Veronica from the clips I have seen on Youtube as they both embody the character and really get into the characters so well that makes you fall in love with the character alongside both Ryan Mccarten and Jamie Muscato who both embody the psychopathic side of JD. Which was even better was the chemistry between Ryan Mccarten and Barrett Wilbert Reed and Carrie Hope Fletcher and Jamie Muscato’s, Veronica and JD was perfect and they really picked the right actors to play the characters.

HEATHERS NETFLIX REBOOT

“you had me from the moment i saw rams lifeless body….”

The heathers netflix reboot is nothing like the original film and is nothing like The Heathers you would think it would be like. Actually unlike the movie and musical when Veronica isn’t really about killing people and isn’t psycopathic, in the reboot, Veronica was much more of a psychopath and is all in for killing people. The three heathers are very different to the original ones, Heather Chandler is a lot less bitchy then the Heather Chandler we know from the 80s movie. Heather Duke is a gay guy which in the eyes of me and my housemate, it’s actually the best thing, he is our favourite character. And the complete difference of this show is that in the film and musical Heather Chandler is the only heather to die and in the show she’s the only one to survive.

veronica sawyer, heather chandler, heather duke and heather mcnamara

You would think because this show doesn’t stick to the original that I wouldn’t like it but I actually loved it, even though it was nothing like the original, it really makes a statement and I honestly love it so much and see it as it’s own original. I definitely recommend watching it even though it has been taken off netflix.

I hope you enjoy my blog because I am very excited to be blogging for everyone! if you do, i would love if you followed my socials which can be found below.

Instagram: @_ameliajl
Twitter: @ameliajfilms
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